All and/or One

      One question (question series) has been bothering me for long time: Why can't I experience everything in my life?

      While tying these words, I am sitting in a guest house owned by a well-off Bai minority family in Shaixi, boiling hot water to make my 3rd instant coffee of the day. Why can't I be sitting in the Antartica and enjoying my coffee with the company of the penguins? Why can't I be enjoying tea on top of the Himalayas? And why can't I be sitting in a guest house owned by a well-off Bai minority family in Shaxi, boiling hot water to make my 3rd instant coffee, AND hearing the cows mooing in the exact moment but not a second after? Is there really a paralleled universe (or multiple universes) where there is (are) another "me" (other "me-s") who is (are) experiencing ALL other possibilities and alternatives that this me cannot experience?

      I've tried to resort to scientific resolutions, researching for answers in fields of philosophy or physics. For quite a while, I thought I have found the answer in the concept of "relativity of simultaneity". After briefly going through the basic arguments of "relativity of simultaneity", I felt that a few pieces are still missing for the pazzle. I've chatted with someone who labled himself as a physicist. He proposed that I shall look more into the philosophical domain. Maybe he was right. 

      The question escapes me when I am occupied with my mundane routines, yet it comes back to haunt me from time to time no matter where I am and what I am doing. 

      After searching for the correct answers for quite some times, I thought I found a quick dose of inner peace to smooth this struggle while I was enjoying myself taking photos of the beautiful blossoms around the park in Shaxi. Not quite sure if it is the "correct answer", but at least a missing part of the pazzle is found.

      A large variety of flowers were thriving in their best shapes and forms under the extremely shining sun. With the dazzling white clouds, green mountains, reflective water decorated as the perfect background, I adjusted my position from all possible angles, trying to make the best shot of EVERY flower. At that exact moment, I suddenly realized that it would be impossible for me to exhaust every flower even in this small park, let alone ALL the flowers around the world.   

      

      After that day, I felt immesely relieved. I stop trying to become everything and have it all, but rather focusing on cultivating the unique self. One life journey, all for the unique self.